A Baby Shower and Thanksgiving

So, since I last blogged both my baby shower and Thanksgiving past. Well, Thanksgiving was just two days ago so Im not that far behind, right?

My baby shower was on the 20th. We had a GREAT turnout! So much support from friends and family. It's awesome. Also, there were rainbows in the sky everywhere that day! The timing couldnt have been more perfect! A good friend of mine was able to snap a pic with her phone (arent those things just amazing these days???) and Im so thankful she did. It's a picture I will cherish forever.

Im finally letting myself truly get excited about this pregnancy and my little girl. I can not wait to meet her! Of course I still have my, "what if" days but excitement and joy are in the forefront of my mind and let me tell you, it is so refreshing!

Thanksgiving was nice. Just simple and relaxing -the way I prefer it! We went to my parent's house and feasted over there with my family and the in-laws. It was really nice! Jacob's favorite part is eating the olives Grammy puts out. What can I say? He is his mother's son.

Party Favors From the Baby Shower

A rainbow for my Rainbow Baby's, baby shower -Mommy loves you Nolan!

Halloween is Over?

Am I allowed to post a Halloween photo in November? Yah, I think so too.

So, Jacob is obsessed with Luigi. NOT Mario, Luigi. My brother got us a Wii last Christmas and ever since then it's been, "Uncle B! You be Mario, I be Luigi!!!" every time he sees him. It's the cutest darn thing. AND, it's the cutest darn thing that his uncle is a GREAT sport and graciously played his role as Mario this past Halloween.

Turning Negatives into Positives

As a bereaved parent one of the coping mechanisms you learn pretty quickly is turning negatives into positives. You have to. Your world becomes so surrounded with pain and sadness that if you dont figure out a way to cope with it you will have an extremely hard time accepting and moving forward with life. At least that's the way I see it.

As the end of September approached it became time for my husband to pull down the Halloween decorations. I went through them, happily encouraged that I actually felt like decorating. The last holiday I decorated for was Valentine's Day. In fact, a little red wooden heart I put out at the beginning of February still hung by the front door. I hung it just a few days before Nolan passed away.

After pulling out a few items I quickly came across something that made my heart sink. It was Nolan's trick or treating pumpkin. I had forgotten all about it. My mom had it made for him last year when I was still pregnant. It matched his big brother's. I grabbed it and held onto it and cried. My baby boy was never going to be able to use it. Then I looked at and almost became angry and annoyed with it. What nerve for this object to be sitting there waiting for me to find it and pull it out only to remind me that it was never going to be used.

Then I fought back. Dammit, I AM going to use it. In fact, Im going to put it out every year! There's no reason why my son's pumpkin should be shoved into a box to be forgotten about. Nolan is still part of our family's Halloween. He always will be! I then became happy to have it. Happy that I had something to put out for Halloween that was Nolan's.

Life is funny that way, ya know? We live day in and day out taking tomorrow for granted. Hell, we take next year for granted! We assume that spending tomorrow with the ones we love is always going to be there.

The only guarantee in life is that there are none.

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Week!

October 9th-15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Week! On October 15th many will be lighting candles at 7:00 pm to honor the little ones taken way too soon.

There will be a candle lit in our home for our sweet Nolan.

A whole month!

What a bad blogger I am! Life has been crazy! But you understand because Im sure yours is too. Between birthdays (which I have been meaning to post for, umm, 3 weeks now) school for Jacob, school for ME, being pregnant, having the holidays quickly approaching which is oh so bittersweet this year, work and photoshoots, Im about 30 minutes away from a nervous breakdown. But hey, that's what makes life interesting, right?

We celebrated Jacob's 5th birthday on Saturday September 18th. Ohemgee. What a prefect day. And I have realized what a rad backyard I have. We got a bounce house / jump house, whatever the heck you want to call it and it fit perfectly with plenty of room to spare. Sweet!

School for Jacob still continues to have its ups and downs and is a lovely source of stress. Yay me! As for school for me I enjoy getting away and having some "me" time for a couple of hours every week even if it does mean sitting in a classroom. Im working on getting my Real Estate License. I figured I dont have enough to do!

Anyway, without further ado, may I present to you Jacob's 5th birthday, Toy Story style!

Beach Day!

We live 20 minutes from the beach and we dont take advantage of it nearly as often as we should! So, in honor of the "last day of summer" we went yesterday, Labor Day. The weather could not have been more perfect! It was beautiful. Remember that little thing about Jacob being obsessed with water? Well, needless to say he was in Jacob heaven after he ate his jelly sandwich of course.

Can I Get a Green Card?!

Woot, woot!

No, I am not talking about immigration. I am talking about the fact that my "young, non-listening" Kindergartner got his very first Green Card today at school! This is major news. This means my youngster got through the whole day without any infractions. Yay! I am beyond happy. This is a major improvement from last week. Exactly one week ago today when I went to pick him up he had made "buddies" with the principal, if you know what I mean...

Who knew how much joy a little green index card would bring to my life?! I just hope he keeps it up. Way to go Jacob, Mommy is SO proud of you!